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Yup! Another journal....

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 31, 2012, 10:39 AM
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Well, I seem to be writing quite a few of these lately, don't I?
hhmmm....possibly because I don't have the usual outlets for venting my frustrations at the moment, so you lot have to suffer instead!! :evillaugh:

Blimey! It's snowing!! I can't believe it!!! I thought we'd got away with it this year!...but no...we haven't. Now some of you might not think it's such a big deal...Yes, I'm talking about you Canada, and Sweden!! But it still is pretty rare here, and our country just isn't set up for it. I don't want this to be a catalyst for someone to write about all the other things that England is crap at....you know who you are.
If it settles, there will be trouble ahead...

It's been very frustrating today, and the last few days really. My sarc has taken a turn for the worse (you may have noticed by my last journal :lol:) and breathing is becoming increasingly more difficult. I've been off work today...every breath I take in makes my lungs burn...I can almost feel every inch of them...such a bizarre feeling...
I know that I am also behaving more than a little erratic and emotional...yup, even more so than normal. I think it's a result of the feeling of uselessness I get when confronted by this stupid disease...I'm lashing out...and I'm sorry.
I am, by nature, a very very emotional person...I love freely and easily, but when hurt I will bite back, and be cruel....but then the remorse I feel for hurting someone I love tears me apart...I'm my own worst enemy.
So...if anyone feels that I've been short or uncaring...or just a right royal pain in the arse lately, then I apologise.
But...having said that, I'm not quite sure if I can change it, because it is me. :shrug:
I don't want to lose any friendships over it.
Right...I've said my bit. Ball's now in your court.

I just want this illness to go away, so I can become "me" again. I've lost myself.

  • Listening to: Blah blah blah
  • Reading: bugger all
  • Watching: errr...nothing
  • Playing: err...nothing again
  • Eating: Nothing...it's flavourless
  • Drinking: Tea...gone off coffee
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Blackfire-Dragon Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
haha the contradiction! :XD:
love u in good and in bad, and i hope u get even better than u were before in no-time! ;)

it snows here too u know? :evileye: (like, once every decade or a bit more :XD:) but it rarely ever reaches the floor, so we dont get to make snowmen and stuff :P although in more southern parts of my country it DOES snow more regularly and ppl sometimes do get the chance to make them :D

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KeswickPinhead Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012   General Artist
Ditto Bugs sentiment. Glad we found you.:hug:
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jacksl Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
glad we found each other, Craig :hug:
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KeswickPinhead Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012   General Artist
:huggle:
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jacksl Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:tighthug:
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a-kid-at-heart Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
We just had another near 50 degree (that's 10C for you) day. I drove around today with the doors open and no coat!
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jacksl Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's FREEZING here!! I'm currently deep in a blanket with the heating on full blast!
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a-kid-at-heart Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I just heard on NPR that unusually cold air was moving through Europe, and something like 80 deaths (mostly homeless) have been attributed to it.
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jacksl Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm not surprised...it's cold...even in my house, unless the heating is on full blast!
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Ann-McLaren Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
We shall suffer together. :tighthug:
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